I had hope that the New Year would be better, that I had hit the bottom and could only go up but, apparently, I was wrong. This year has not gotten better and I feel like the hole is just getting deeper and soon I won't be able to see the light at the top. I've made a mess out of my life and I no longer know how to fix it. While solving my financial problems will help, it won't be enough to get me out at this point. I'm not even sure medication can do it anymore. I'm overwhelmed and feel like I no longer have control over anything. It's not a place I want to be but I'm not sure how to get to a better place.