Friday, January 16, 2009

In A Daze

I had hope that the New Year would be better, that I had hit the bottom and could only go up but, apparently, I was wrong.  This year has not gotten better and I feel like the hole is just getting deeper and soon I won't be able to see the light at the top. I've made a mess out of my life and I no longer know how to fix it.  While solving my financial problems will help, it won't be enough to get me out at this point.  I'm not even sure medication can do it anymore.  I'm overwhelmed and feel like I no longer have control over anything.  It's not a place I want to be but I'm not sure how to get to a better place.  


I just keep falling and, when I think I've hit bottom, it turns out to just be a ledge and I eventually start falling again.  There has to be a bottom....right?

3 comments:

TrueDub said...

I know saying hang in there is trite and won't help much, but it's what you have to do.

Clouds clear, and believe it or not people do climb out of holes. You will too.

I wish I could say something more helpful.

Jim

Wwonka said...

Yes there is a bottom. Hang in there you are not alone.

Peace
Billy

Damian said...

i'm sorry to hear that you're going through this. Explore the simple things, sunset, sunrise, birds chirping in the park, trees swaying in the wind. This alwats helps me get over a shitty period. You'll be ok mate, hang in there...

Damo